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Updated January 2010
I try to make good choices, for myself, with the other person's well being in
mind,
but like anyone else I sometimes react in anger,
sometimes I'm misguided by fear,
(my own and others)
and sometimes I let my heart lead me where my gut is saying don't go.
And in doing so I am sometimes hurt, or sometimes I hurt others...
So I use these three very basic rules to try to live by...
Not always, but most of the time I am successful...
Judge not lest yea be judged.
The Lord isn't saying that others will judge us if we stand in judgment of our
brothers and sisters.
He is saying HE will.
Don't know about you but I think I'll leave the Lord's job to the Lord...
He knows the condition of someone else's heart better than I EVER will.
Forgive one and another
Forgiving doesn't release the other person from the responsibility of his or her
actions.
We are to forgive because forgiveness frees us from bondage...
frees us from being bound to what we hate,
frees us from being bound to the hateful.
Forgiveness empties our heart,
cleans our souls,
and lets the Lord place HIS love in our heart.
Forgiveness is between myself and my God.
I am human, loving those that hurt me would be very hard for me to do on my own,
so I do what the Lord tells me to
with faith that he will place in my heart what
HE wants there.
Only the Lord can work a wonder.
I have nothing to do with it, I can't help, assist or make it happen.
If wonders are going to happen in my life then I trust that He will bring them
to me..
Until then the only thing I can do is to have an open, willing heart.
I didn't ask to be widowed.
I didn't ask to be left behind because Rick
chose suicide either.
I had no say or choice in either matter.
I'd bring them both back if I could.
I do not want them dead.
But they are.
All I can do is go on and do the best that I can.
One way I can do that is to recognize that options and choices I have now.
Doing so is not taking advantage of their deaths.
It is simply making the most of my life.
Aubrey life taught me that I am responsible for defining what quality is to me.
If I fail to live the best I can than I dishonor myself.
If I let bitterness or anger reside in my heart then I stop myself right here,
where I am now, and I do not grow.
I then become the victim of my own pain, not the teacher (nor the student)
of my life lessons.
I can't let that happen.
I don't want to be anyone's victim, especially not my own.
I want to do more than survive the heartaches life brings my way.
The life I want to live, and the person I want to be,
has no place in it for meanness, or vindictiveness, or anger.
I can only try to apply my life lessons so that I make healthy choices for
myself
and my heart.
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